Have You ever Seen an Angel?

2007-03-28T04:32:00.001-07:00

Everything is Beautiful!
To love your life, to be somebody but yourself!

2007-03-28T04:31:00.001-07:00

Luka..
Jadikan lukamu itu kekuatanmu ...

2007-03-28T04:29:00.000-07:00

To Be YourSelf
Ehm,.... Sering sudah pernah denger three magic words :"Be Your Self!". Ga teu sapa yg suka bilang gitu, wiseman or a stupid moron, it’s easier said than done. YES, ITS SOOOOOOO DAMN HARRRRDDDDD TO BE YOURSELF, to be somebody, why? go ask your self. Berapa jam, hari, minggu yang sudah kamu jalani dengan menjadi dirimu sendiri, especially within your interaction to people. And kamu mulai talk bullshit. I think its related with maturity and self-identity, some magical word that i thought it only exist in my imagination.
IMAGINE, ketika temen-temenmu, orang diselilingmu mulai menunjukkan "kebolehannya" dan segala "kelebihannya", satu yang pengen aku liat. Yup, reaksimu ketika mulai meninggikan harga dirimu dengan segala cara, humble u’r self with ur bullshit. Hueeekkkk.....but so am I . And wiseman say again, Go, Be your self....hellloooo..!! Once again, its easier for you to say. You got everything, and me...Nothing but a pathetic loser with so many weakness as my advantages.
Pernahkan kamu bermimpi jadi superman, pemain band terkenal, einstein, penemu penicillin, konglomerat, anak presiden, or someone. Something yang pasti blon ada pada dirimu, Superman never dream to be a superman, yeaaa...keep on dreaming loser, when u wake up and realize how pathetic you are. Yes, I am a moron with nothing to be proud of, but maybe someday will find one and more, and more...And if dreaming will make me stronger, then i will keep dreaming. by the way, I’ve found a better word : "HOPE".
I’ll try to be more optimistic next time...(to be continued)

2007-03-28T04:26:00.000-07:00

Me & My ...!
How could you be outhere with him, while you’re still here in my heart!!

2007-03-28T04:22:00.000-07:00

J.E.A.L.O.U.S.Y
Ada badai...dihatikuyeahh, bahkan seorang yang (sok) kuat seperti aqpun ngga ada apa2xnya pas ngeliat mantannya jalan bareng orang laen...A.K.U. .C.E.M.B.U.R.U.(.) 1000x sukses aq bales, but (still) tetep aja ada rasa yg aneh when i see deep inside her eyes...(.) All phathetic I said and done, kebohongan yg dibungkus dengan kata2x manis aq ucapin pas kita sepakat buat "BREAK" kutelan sendiri bulat2x! It’s suck!! ....A.K.U. .C.E.M.B.U.R.U.(.) Why? Napa? What’s wrong? It’s always be the question! Apa karena kesabarannya yang (dulu) mampu mengubur dalem2x semua emosiqu...pribadiku yang sombong, egois, dan mau menang sendiriApa karena sinar matanya, the light within her eyes, bisa memupuskan smua keraguanku,membangkitkan semangatku sepuluh ribu kali lebih kuat...(.) Senyumnya yang biar cuma sepersejuta detikpun sudah cukup mampu meredam semua kekonyolanku...(.) I’M D.Y.I.N.G ...!!! LIFE SUCKs but still LIFE’s GOES ON..!! GOD GIVE ME STRENGHT..!! TAPI..!!!! Itu kan dulu, so i’ll keep movin’...i’m tougher now...and you can only make me stronger..!!

2007-03-27T04:10:00.002-07:00

The Fearless One. Prelude.
Itulah kenapa kamu tidak bisa melarikan diri dari ketakutanmu, karena ketakutanmu itu selalu ada di satu tempat yg tidak bisa kamu hindari...dalam pikiranmu. So?

2007-03-27T04:10:00.001-07:00

The Fearless One. Part II : The Battle
Butuh waktu selamanya untuk melarikan diri dari ketakutan2xmu itu, tapi hanya butuh satu keberanian saja untuk mengalahkan salah satu dari mereka. Dengan menguatkan hati untuk meghadapinya, so be brave !! You would need all your strength, will & courage to defeat it.

2007-03-27T04:08:00.000-07:00

The Fearless One. Part III: Consequence(s)
Face the fact : You can’t win in every battle against your fear, welcome to the real world. Face any consequences, any result. But it’s alright, You dont have to, because when you dare to confront your fear, whatever the result, you ALREADY win. Even the worst result can’t be that bad, coz : You already face it anyway. Take a deep breath & CHEERS!!!

2007-03-27T04:06:00.000-07:00

The Fearless One. Part IV: After the Dark
So you’ve done it. Then, go on.. make your own way. Build your own future.

2007-03-27T04:00:00.000-07:00

The Fearless One. Interlude.
Hanyalah untuk tidak menyembunyikan, menghilangkan, mengelabui ketakutanmu, karena dialah juga yang membuatmu selalu berhati2x dan berusaha untuk baik dlm melakukan sesuatu. Anyway, it’s a part of u. A fully human being.

2007-03-27T03:54:00.002-07:00

Seorang temenkoe pernah yang br patah hati nanya (or ngaseh statement yah about a real way "How to love" yang bisa membuktikan kalo cara mencintai manusia itu egois, the question is : "IF YOU FALL IN LOVE TO AN "ANGEL", HOW WOULD YOU LIKE IT TO BE ?????, Pilih 1 jawaban di bawah, or you may just post one of your own!"

a. Cara seorang bijak/wiseman way, If you love her, you got to let her go, or cinta tak harus memiliki, or you’lll have to let her go man...kalo kamu bener2x suka ya biar dia meraih kebahagiaannya sendiri, or sederetan kata2x bullsh*t laennya yang menurutku seh sama skali ga enak didenger or diterima akal sehat seorang manusia.
b. Cara seorang "manusia sejati", I will cut of her wing just to keep her here with me..all the time, live happily ever after, of course...with me around Biarin dia jadi ga bisa terbang yg penting kita hepi.

So? apa yang kamu pilih? My Answer : DEFINITELY "B", sebodo amat...I am an ordinary man (tu kan lo egois, menurutku seh kalo kamu pilih "A then you must have a holy circle up your head (that means you must be an angel too), or kamu manusia pilihan Tuhan yang sudah 3 kali berevolusi/reinkarnasi melebihi manusia laen di bumi ini yang adanya cuman 1 :10 milyar. Well, we’re just an ordinary people. Welcome to our world Life Sucks :(. POST IT TO ME IF YOU GOT OTHER OPINION..!!

2007-03-27T03:54:00.001-07:00

Anyone that says, "All you have to do is.....Please leave this planet..!! this place is absolutely not for your species..

2007-03-27T03:46:00.000-07:00

Kamu tau apa yang aku suka darimu? karena kalo kau bersamaku aku selalu bisa membangkitkan semua apa yang terbaik dari diriku.

2007-03-27T03:44:00.000-07:00

Tuhan mungkin akan mengambil "sesuatu yang berharga darimu sehingga bila kamu memperoleh "sesuatu yang berharga lainnya kamu akan menjaganya dengan sepenuh hati, lebih baik dari yang sebelumnya. You don’t know how precious it was till it’s gone.

2003-05-31T07:53:00.000-07:00

Like A Stone
By : Audioslave

On a cobweb afternoon
In a room full of emptiness
By a freeway I confess
I was lost in the pages
Of a book full of death
Reading how we'll die alone
And if we're good we'll lay to rest
Anywhere we want to go

(chorus)
In your house I long to be
Room by room patiently
I'll wait for you there
Like a stone I'll wait for you there
Alone

On my deathbed I will prey
To the gods and the angels
Like a pagan to anyone
Who will take me to heaven
To a place I recall
I was there so long ago
The sky was bruised
The wine was bled
And there you led me on

(chorus)
In your house I long to be
Room by room patiently
I'll wait for you there
Like a stone I'll wait for you there
Alone

And on I read
Until the day was done
And I sat in regret
Of all the things I've done
For all that I've blessed
And all that I've wronged
In dreams until my death
I will wander on

Note : Waiting’s sucks………..

2003-05-31T07:50:00.000-07:00

Somewhere I belong
By : Linkin Park

When this began
I had nothing to say
And Id get lost in the nothingness inside of me
I was confused
And Id let it all out to find
That im not the only person with these things in mind
Inside of me
When all the vacancy the words revealed
Is the only real thing that Ive got left to feel
Nothing to loose
Just stuck, hollow and alone
And the fault is my own and the fault is my own

I wanna heal
I wanna feel
What I thought was never real
I want to let go of the pain I felt so long
Erase all the pain til its gone
I wanna heal
I wanna feel
Like Im close to something real
I want to find something Ive wanted all along
Somewhere I belong

And Ive got nothing to say
I cant believe I didnt fall right down on my face
I was confused
Looking everwhere only to find
That its not the way I had imagined it all in my mind
So what am I
What do I have but negativity
Cause I cant justify the way everyone is looking at me
Nothing to loose
Nothing to gain, hollow and alone
And the fault is my own and the fault is my own

I wanna heal
I wanna feel
What I thought was never real
I want to let go of the pain I felt so long
Erase all the pain til its gone
I wanna heal
I wanna feel
Like Im close to something real
I want to find something Ive wanted all along
Somewhere I belong

I will never know
Myself until I do this on my own
And I will never feel
Anything else, until my wounds are healed
I will never be anything
Until I break away from me
I will break away
I'll find myself today

I wanna heal
I wanna feel
What I thought was never real
I want to let go of the pain I felt so long
Erase all the pain til its gone
I wanna heal
I wanna feel
Like Im close to something real
I want to find something Ive wanted all along
Somewhere I belong

I wanna heal
I wanna feel
I wanna feel like Im somewhere I belong

I wanna heal
I wanna feel
I wanna feel like Im somewhere I belong

Somewhere I belong

Note : Coz I don’t belong here, I even don’t belong to myself anymore….so What d’you expect me to be…to do….

2003-05-31T07:47:00.000-07:00

Unwell
By : Matchbox 20

All day
Staring at the ceiling
Makin' friends with shadows on my wall
All night
Hearing voices telling
Me that I should get some sleep
Because tomorrow might be good for something
Hold on
Feeling like I'm headed for a
Breakdown and I don't know why

Well I'm not crazy
I'm just a little unwell
I know right now you can't tell
But stay a while and maybe then you'll see
A different side of me
I'm not crazy
I'm just a little impaired
I know, right now you don't care
But soon enough you're gonna think of me
And how I used to be

Me, I'm talking to myself in public
And dodging glances on the train
And I know
I know they've all been talkin' bout me
I can hear them whisper
And it makes me think that there must be something wrong
With me
Out of all the hours thinkin
Somehow I've lost my mind

Well I'm not crazy
I'm just a little unwell
I know right now you can't tell
But stay a while and maybe then you'll see
A different side of me
I'm not crazy
I'm just a little impaired
I know, right now you don't care
But soon enough you're gonna think of me
And how I used to be

I've been talkin in my sleep
Pretty soon they'll come to get me
Yeah, they're takin' me away

Well I'm not crazy
I'm just a little unwell
I know right now you can't tell
But stay a while and maybe then you'll see
A different side of me
I'm not crazy
I'm just a little impaired
I know, right now you don't care
But soon enough you're gonna think of me
And how I used to be
Yeah, How I used to be
How I used to be, yeah
Well I'm just a little unwell
How I used to be
(A little unwell)
How I used to be
I'm just a little unwell

Note : Like I said, I AM NOT crazy, I’m just little unwell…perhaps impaired, but if you patient enough, you’ll see a different side of me…like I I used to be…

2003-05-31T07:45:00.000-07:00

If You’re not the One
By : Daniel Bedingfield

If you're not the one then why does my soul feel glad today?
If you're not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine then why does your heart return my call
If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all

I never know what the future brings
But I know you are here with me now
We'll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with

I don't want to run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

If I don't need you then why am I crying on my bed?
If I don't need you then why does your name resound in my head?
If you're not for me then why does this distance maim my life?
If you're not for me then why do I dream of you as my wife?

I don't know why you're so far away
But I know that this much is true
We'll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And I pray in you're the one I build my home with
I hope I love you all my life

I don't want to run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

'Cause I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away
And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today
'Cause I love you, whether it's wrong or right
And though I can't be with you tonight
And know my heart is by your side

I don't want to run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

Note : So, how to seek for “the one”, how to know she’s the one, and how to…You’ll know when you meet her..when you know her deeply, when you feel it…

2003-05-31T07:44:00.000-07:00

Bring Me To Life
By Evanescence

How can you see into my eyes
like open doors.Leading you down into my core
where I've become so numb.Without a soul
my spirit's sleeping somewhere cold
until you find it there and lead it back home.

(Wake me up).Wake me up inside.
I can't wake up. Wake me up inside. Save me.
Call my name and save me from the dark.
Wake me up. Bid my blood to run.
I can't wake up. Before I come undone. Save me.
Save me from the nothing I've become.)

Now that I know what I'm without you can't just leave me.
Breathe into me and make me real Bring me to life.
[Chorus]
Bring me to life. I've been living a lie
There's nothing inside. Bring me to life.

Frozen inside without your touch,
without your love, darling.
Only you are the life among the dead.

All of this sight. I can't believe I couldn't see
Kept in the dark but you were there in front of me
I've been sleeping a 1000 years it seems.
I've got to open my eyes to everything.

Without a thought. Without a voice. Without a soul
Don't let me die here
There must be something wrong. Bring me to life.
[Chorus]
Bring me to life. I've been living a lie.There's nothing inside.
Bring me to life

Note : Wake me upside, coz right now I’m lost…without a soul..without a voice,…without a thought, …save me..!!

2003-05-31T07:43:00.000-07:00

Sorry
By : Crazy Town

I'm sorry,
I'm not what you are
So sorry,
The ugly of it all
All my life,
I was beneath you
It's all my fault,
Please forgive me

Maybe I could change
Maybe I could try
Maybe I could
But the again

CHORUS:
Why would I want to
Lie like you
Thieve like you
Hurt like you
Deceive like you
Connive like you
Cheat like you
It's not that hard to be like you
But then again, why would I want to

I'm sorry,
I am so ashamed
So sorry,
I'll take all the blame
All my life,
I've been so confused
It's all my fault,
Please forgive me

Maybe I could change
Maybe I could try
Maybe I could
But then again

CHORUS

Why would I want to (x4)

I'm sorry,
I'm not what you are
So sorry,
The ugly of it all
All my life,
I was beneath you
It's all my fault
Please forgive me

Note : Your final weapon…”Sorry,..so sorry….blamin’ yourself, and cryin’ if it needed….And I still defeated, once gain a slave..

2003-05-31T07:41:00.000-07:00

I Will Survive
By : Cake

At first I was afraid.
I was petrified.
I kept thinking I could never live
Without you by my side.
But then I spent so many nights
Just thinking how you'd done me wrong.
I grew strong.
I learned how to get along.
And so you're back from outer space.
I just walked in to find you here
Without that look upon your face.
I should have changed my fucking lock.
I would have made you leave your key
If I'd have known for just one second
You'd be back to bother me.

Oh now go.
Walk out the door.
Just turn around now.
You're not welcome anymore.
Weren't you the one
Who tried to break me with desire?
Did you think I'd crumble?
Did you think I'd lay down and die?
Oh not I.

I will survive.
As long as I know how to love
I know I'll be alive.
I've got all my life to live.
I've got all my love to give.
I will survive.
I will survive.

It took all the strength I had
Just not to fall apart.
I'm trying hard to mend
The pieces of my broken heart.
And I spent oh so many nights
Just feeling sorry for myself.
I used to cry.
But now I hold my head up high.

And you'll see me with somebody new.
I'm not that stupid little person
Still in love with you.
And so you thought you'd just drop by,
And you expect me to be free.
But now I'm saving all my lovin'
For someone who's lovin' me.

Oh now go.
Walk out the door.
Just turn around now.
You're not welcome anymore.
Weren't you the one
Who tried to break me with desire?
Did you think I'd crumble?
Did you think I'd lay down and die?
Oh not I.

I will survive.
As long as I know how to love
I know I'll be alive.
I've got all my life to live.
I've got all my love to give.
I will survive.
I will survive.

Note : It surely took all the strength I had, but SURELY again that I will survive, I’m not that stupid little person…. As long as I know how to love

2003-05-31T07:39:00.000-07:00

Angel
By : Aerosmith

I'm alone, yeah, I don't know if I can face the night
I'm in tears, and the cryin' that I do is for you
I want your love, let's break the walls between us
Don't make it tough, I'll put away my pride
Enough's enough, I've suffered and I've seen the light

Baby,
(Chorus)
You're my Angel, come and save me tonight
You're my Angel, come and make it alright
You're my Angel, come and save me tonight

Don't know what I'm gonna do about this feelin' inside
Yes, it's true, loneliness took me for a ride
Without your love, I'm nothing but a beggar
Without your love, a dog without a bone
What can I do, I'm sleepin' in this bed alone

Baby,
(Chorus)

You're the reason I live
You're the reason I die
You're the reason I give
When I break down and cry
Don't need no reason why

Baby, baby, baby
(Repeat Chorus)

Note : Think I found my angel, vulnerable but irresistible….Come and save me, You're the reason I live…

2003-05-31T07:38:00.000-07:00

Walking After You
By : Foo Fighter

Tonight I'm tangled in my blanket of clouds
dreaming aloud
things just won't do without you matter of fact
I'm on your back

If you walk out on me
I'm walking after you

If you'd accept surrender
give up some more
weren't you adored
I cannot be without you matter of fact
I'm on your back

If you walk out on me
Im walking after you
another heart is cracked in two
Im on your back

Note : I’m walking after you….

2003-05-31T07:36:00.000-07:00

Barely Breathing
by Duncan Sheik

I know what you’re doing, I see it all to clear
I only taste the saline when I kiss away your tears
You really had me going, wishing on a star
But the black holes that surround you are heavier by far

I believed in your confusion, you were so completely torn
Well it must have been that yesterday was the day that I was born
There’s not much to examine, there’s nothing left to hide
You really can’t be serious if you have to ask me why

I say good-bye...

‘Cause I am barely breathing
And I can’t find the air
I don’t know who I’m kidding
Imagining you care
And I could stand here waiting
A fool for another day
But I don’t suppose it’s worth the price, worth the price
The price that I would pay

Everyone keeps asking, what’s it all about?
I used to be so certain and I can’t figure out
What is this attraction? I only feel the pain
There’s nothing left to reason and only you to blame
Will it ever change?

‘Cause I am barely breathing
And I can’t find the air
I don’t know who I’m kidding
Imagining you care
And I could stand here waiting
A fool for another day
But I don’t suppose it’s worth the price, worth the price
The price that I would pay
But I’m thinking it over anyway...

I’ve come to find
I may never know
Your changing mind
Is it friend or foe?

I rise above
Or sink below
With every time
You come and go
Please don’t come and go

‘Cause I am barely breathing
And I can’t find the air
I don’t know who I’m kidding
Imagining you care
And I could stand here waiting
A fool for another day
But I don’t suppose it’s worth the price, worth the price
The price that I would pay
But I’m thinking it over anyway...

Note : ‘Cause I am barely breathing. And I can’t find the air………

2003-05-31T07:34:00.000-07:00

Iris
By : Goo Goo Dolls

And I'd give up forever to touch you
'Cause I know that you feel me somehow
You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be
And I don't want to go home right now

And all I can taste is this moment
And all I can breathe is your life
'Cause sooner or later it's over
I just don't want to miss you tonight

And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming
Or the moment of truth in your lies
When everything feels like the movies
Yeah you bleed just to know you're alive

And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am

Note : And I don't want the world to see me. 'Cause I don't think that they'd understand….I just want you to know who I am